AS ABOVE SO BELOW & WITHIN

Every design, or art piece, I’ve made available for purchase so far has some level of meaning incorporated.  Even the Piss Machine hoodie has meaning, just not in a serious way. The Creative Moon Emblem, my logo, is an eye embraced by a crescent moon, which represents creativity and intuition. I created the Moon Magic Sigil to represent creative and protective energy for whoever adorns it. The One More Round design I created was intended to make a gamer shirt I would want to wear. The two pieces, As Above So Below & Within and Still Not Dead, have deeper and perhaps darker meanings and inspirations behind them than the others.

I did not go into this piece with any intention. What started as a doodle of an eye transformed into something more meaningful, the way a lot of my favourite creations start. I will give some insights into what certain elements mean to me on their own.
DESCRIPTION:
“As Above…”  has an eyeball as the main subject. Eyes representing intuition and the “soul " or whatever consciousness is. The Eyeball has the horns and tail of a devil, which are contrasted by 2 small wings at its side, and 3 halos ascending from its crown. There is a heart above the eyeball-being that is protected by the halos. From within the eye, where the pupil should be, there is a large wet tongue exiting the eye. The pink tongue and light blue saliva are the only colours on the otherwise colourless piece. At the tip of the tongue, there is a small white tab of paper with a protective symbol on it.

The first time I did a psychedelic,
I was 14, and it saved my life.

Trigger warning (SA)

‍ ‍My upbringing was not easy, and I faced a lot of painful experiences essentially alone. Unfortunately, where I grew up, it wasn't uncommon for young girls, like my friends and I, to start experimenting with substances and hanging out with older boys. This eventually led to me being SA by an older boy that I had known for years. The next day, the few people who knew, including him, treated me like shit. I did not understand why. I had known these people for years, and they were acting as if I were invisible. One of them was even angry with me. My “best friend” reacted as if I had told her I lost my shoes again. It was painful and confusing. I didn’t tell anyone else for a long time and internalized the pain. Unfortunately, I also continued hanging out with all of those people… for years.

Trigger warning ends.

I did eventually snap in my own way. My friends and family were oblivious or didn't care. I was in a lot of pain I didn’t know how to manage on my own. This led to me becoming extremely self-destructive. I was still experimenting and hanging out with those “friends. About a year into my self-destructive downward spiral, I was introduced to my first psychedelic experience.

For the first time in my life, I was able to look at myself from an outside perspective. This gave me clarity and allowed me to have compassion for myself. I saw a girl who was in a lot of pain, who did not deserve the things that happened to her. I mark the realization as a defining moment in my life. I believe the psychedelics helped change the trajectory of where my life was going. Psychedelics are not for everyone, but they played a huge role in my being able to navigate and find some meaning in this insane world. Hence, the tab of paper on the tongue. Which will be a recurring theme.

And finally…
The devil and angel's attributes together represent the light and dark parts of us. You can not have the “good” without the “bad”. Life and death. Growth and decay. So on. Every person has both qualities inside them. However you identify with them or don’t, both parts are real. If you choose to ignore one and tend to the other, it will be mirrored in your life in interesting ways.

Our experiences are a reflection of what truth we carry inside of us. The same type of people and experiences repeat until we learn from them. If we learn from them.