Hard Launch?

That's right—Hard launch BAYBEEE.

That last launch wasn't even hard, bro. It was like half chubbed, and it definitely didn't lift.

I initially planned to call my first launch of the website and merchandise a "soft launch" because it was only the beginning of my vision. When finalizing everything, I took a friend's advice and decided to just call it a launch. I tend to make things more complicated than necessary. At the time, this made sense. In the chaos of getting the website and merch live, I lost sight of my vision and forgot to trust myself.

Moon Magic Sigil T-Shirt

The designs and products launched at first were always meant to be foundational. The Moon Magic Sigil and the Always Watching Eye are meaningful to me, and I kept them simple on purpose. The silly items are for laughs, maybe from inside jokes or random ideas, and are probably unoriginal. Like the Piss Machine T-shirt or the Trying My Best T-shirt (for those who know... I know). This launch, alongside this blog, will better represent who I am and what I aim to build and share. This launch feels like a hard launch to me, and I hope it will be clear why!

Over time, who I am and my intentions on this journey will become clearer. This website, my stream, my content, my merch, and most importantly, my art will keep evolving and growing with me. If I start sucking, so will everything else ;) My goal is to keep improving as an artist, a creative, and a human-person-thing.

This blog will share untold parts of my journey, what got me here, and where I am headed. The dream. The adventures... and exploring ideas like: Why am I like this? And what can be done about it? Anything?! I'd like to think so. But we shall see.

This will give a deeper understanding of who I am, the meaning of my art, and my creative urges. A deeper understanding of myself, for myself. To help me process this life while I try to build a better one, and if things go well, inspire others to do the same. If things go even better, cultivate a community of like-minded folks.

Community Hoodie Limited Editio

This website is meaningful to me. This website, and especially this launch, represent a big step toward my future. Toward a future that little me would not have dreamed of creating. This whole process has been difficult and overwhelming, mostly on an emotional level. I have been labelled/diagnosed with CPTSD, PTSD, chronic depression, and an anxiety disorder. It has taken a lot to overcome myself, my bullshit, and my trauma to get to this point (aka Leveling my irl RPG character).

Though I've worked hard to get here, I would not have made it far without the kindness and support of others. Some people who are still in my life, and some who came and went. When I look back at the chance encounters and moments that changed the trajectory of my life, it is hard not to get emotional. I would love to get emotional, but I don't have time right now. Busy Busy ;). But yeah, this might not seem like a big deal to everyone, but the website, this launch, and everything that went into getting to this point means the world to me. As I share my journey and tell my story, it will become clearer why.

So yeah. HARD launch, right? Still, the beginning of the vision, but a significant step that I hope sheds a little light on who I am, my intentions for this website, my art, and my journey.

Thank you for reading <3